Being the Girlfriend of a Go Kart Racer

Where do I start...

I have been dating this guy for the last year, who once a month, every month, is down at the go kart track racing, getting his pent up anger and frustration out in a safe and sporting way, just like every sportsman does. He knows he can go out there on that Sunday of the month and leave it out there and come away from it a new man as it were. 

Like any sport it has its highs and its lows and everything in between, I love being there to support him (and I wouldn't forgive myself if he got hurt and I wasn't there). I love him and I have to support him with this despite how scary and dangerous it can be sometimes. 

We enjoy the wins and we learn from the unfortunate events to, mechanical issues are always a funny one! especially watching them work away trying to fix one problem to find out it was something else entirely. He isn't part of a big team like most, some aren't as fortunate to spend thousands every weekend, its just him and his dad, on the odd weekend every months. 

Crashes happen sometimes and when it happens in his race my heart stops, thinking for just a split second it might be him until I see him come round that corner, sometimes crashes aren't as preventable as you might think, someone might have hit you causing a chain reaction, you just don't know whats happened in that moment, but you get the people who are too involved who are in it to win it and have temper tantrums when someone beats them, or they get taken out under circumstances out of any ones control, who ruin it for everyone. 

Just last month there was a huge crash, tempers were flaring because it was a hot day and thing happened... drinks and buckets of water were thrown, blame was passed to one person and the affects are still being felt in the build up to this coming race. It is horrifying watching someone go through that, someone you are close to, there is something known around the karting world called "Race and Respect" (i have linked for anyone who want to read.) but this is only really known at the tracks that operate under licence, for the ones that don't... it's a different story, people don't show self control, they don't show good sportsmanship, they only show that they are a sore looser, who will do anything to take the one person who can beat them out despite what the outcome of this might be and only look out for number 1. 

I dont know if anyone reading this is part of the karting world but please think before you act you dont always know the full story. Just think how would you like it if that was you being targetted or if it was your partner/ son/ husband? you probably wouldn't, so why should you cause it to someone else because you dont like how things have turned out?

I will just say the track that the crash i mentioned happened at, delt with it accordingly at the time and was informed of everything that happened after the race finished. So there is no fault on their behalf. 

Race and Respect. 

love always, 

B xx

I know I havent written in a while and this is a bit of a weird topic for me to write about but I had to get my thoughts down and emotions out to process, thank you for reading! 

Post Canada: The Up and The Downs and Everything In-Between

Hey there! 

So, I know that this post has been long awaited but as always life got in the way and I ended up doing other things, as opposed to writing this post. Here I am now sitting down laptop keyboard at the ready, writing. 

As I am writing this it is exactly 3 weeks and 5 days since I landed back in London from Canada, and honestly it was one of the best trips I have ever been on. 

My chance to get away from everything, to relax and destress, and above all else, visit some amazing people. 

So, let's start with the flights! in total, I was up in the air for approximately 11 hours. It was definitely a very long flight, but well worth it. 

I was definitely feeling some anxiety towards it, leaving my parents at the airport, and the impending layover in Vancouver, but all of that anxiety was overshadowed by the thought of going to one of my favourite places in the world. 

I am used to the safety net of my parents, especially when travelling, with my mum sat next to me, my dad paying for everything and mum looking after all the important documents. 

This time, it was all down to me. I had to look after my own passport and tickets. Make sure I made it to the gate on time without delay, and to board my flight when called. That full 9 hours' was definitely not fun having no one to talk to, however on my second flight which was kind of a bit scary, there was a kind guy about my age that could maybe sense my apprehension, because he kept the conversation going, talking about England, why he was back in Canada and telling me about the area I was going to! I wish I knew his name, we were so caught up in getting off the plane and finding our families that we never said goodbye and I didn't get to thank him!

My first week there was a very quiet one. I was getting over my JetLag, Relaxing and also just having fun with someone of the kids. We took one of the girls to swimming every morning and then to the bakery to get a doughnut or a cookie, whatever sweet treat we fancied that day :). 

By Saturday I was over my JetLag we woke up relatively early and went up to the Kelowna craft and farmers market, It has been raining most of the morning so most vendors had given up and surrendered to the elements  but there were still a few people there, it was nice to just browse the stalls before moving on to our final destination! the little town of Merrit. 

We were there visiting some more cousins, picking up a few bits and heading home. 

That night we had planned to go to the drive in, but as we got there the 'Sold Out' signs appeared, so instead we ended up at the good old Tim Hortons "drowning our sorrows" in hot chocolate and doughnuts... Yes, I seem to have eaten a lot of Doughnuts this holiday haha!  

On Sunday we slept in a bit before we got in the car and drove up to Revelstoke, to do this new attraction called the pipe! The Pipe is this mountain coaster that you have to get in a gondola to reach the top, then  you come back to the bottom. the whole ride takes about 6 minutes, it's terrifying and fun but worth giving it a try, putting those nerves aside and taking that leap of faith, you should always try and do something new and scary because 90% of the time, its worth it. 

Despite all the fun I had hanging out with family, playing with puppies and just getting away from life in general, it was soon back to reality. I could write so much more, but I have already waffled on so much. 

The final thing I will say is that saying goodbye was one of the hardest things I feel I have ever had to do, even now thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. 

Going on this trip was the best thing I could have done, I learnt my limits, I learnt who I am and most of all, I learnt that my Anxiety doesn't hold me back anymore. Yes, it will always be a part of me but My life is an open road and I can handle anything.

All My Love, 

B xxx

Once In A Lifetime

Hello :)

So, today I thought I would write about something that was a HUGE! achievement for me...

2 nights ago [Sunday 6th September] I was invited, last minute, to go see The Foo Fighters at the Milton Keynes Bowl.

So of course I said yes not wanting to pass up such an opportunity by the time we got there my anxieties had started to build, over thinking every little detail, which i soon forgot because we were some of the first 2,000 people there meaning we got purple wrist bands allowing us access to the 'inner pit' which is a cornered off area next to the stage. Now if you think about it, The National bowl at milton keynes hold 65,000 people and it was a sold out concert, to be in that 2,000 is incredible! 

photo credit: google images

Just as the immense size of the crowd dawned on me, and my anxiety started to build a band called 'Royal Blood' came on and suddenly all that worrying and anxiety left. and i was able to enjoy the spectacular going on in front of me. 

Royal Blood was shortly followed by Iggy Pop! he definitely left me questioning what on earth I had just watched, He certainly puts on quite a show for a 68 year old! And some of the things he was doing made me think 'Why am I still watching this?'

When The Foo Fighters finally came on they put on an epic performance!  Every single person there was fully engrossed in what was happening on the stage, they were going crazy... Mosh Pits were breaking out left right and centre... one happened right in front of me about four times and I can honestly say it is the most terrifying and exciting thing to experience. Fully Grown body flying at you from all directions... even though I was on the side lines. 

By the time the Foo Fighters ended i was ready to sit down, we had been standing in place like sardines for about 8 hours, but it was well worth it! 

I can honestly say i am proud of myself! Proud that I was able to go and not have a panic attack... that is something that I would have never been able to do 2 years ago. Before I got help. 

I suppose this just goes to show that things can get better! 

Love, 

Becca 

Life little update

Hey Guys!

So I haven't blogged in a while, and trust me there is a good reason! Life just got in the way, I've had a tone of exams to revise for and even finding time to go to work has been hard but I've managed! 

So what's been going on behind the scenes?

Well a couple of weeks ago me and a friend were lucky enough to go to the Birmingham LG arena to see McBusted it was so good! probably the best concert I've ever been to (although I don't have a lot of concerts to compare them to!) I was young when Busted broke up and I used to listen to the only album it had on repeat do it was a dream made reality to go see an ultimate super group LIVE! It was definitely the best break between exams, which I have finally finished yesterday!!!!! Now I am free to live my life without having to worry about college, which I spend mostly on social media or sleeping (I know living life to the full!!!) 

That's about all from me, I shall leave you with some pictures from McBusted! 

Updates to come soon! 

Rebecca x