Update time! Anxiety and Other Stuff

Hey Guys,

Wow its been a while since I've sat at my computer and written to you.

what can I say,  this post is personal to me and I figured I should just get it out and tell you guys.

some of you who know me, know that for the last year or so I have been struggling with Anxiety, this is a very personal issue that took me a long time to admit to my friends and even family that I was struggling, but when I eventually did tell the people that mattered, I was able to get the help that I so desperately needed, and I am in a better place because of it.

This is why I'm writing this post, because I finally feel strong enough to tell people, or even help others if they need it!

Over the last couple of months I have been to see a councillor to get help and ways to cope with it because for me new situations and the feeling of  'I can't escape' were the main causes of my attacks.  Which is something I had never experienced before going to sixth form and It definitely scared me, I didn't tell anyone though... this was probably my biggest mistake.

Now, new situations is something that I cant escape because being 17 you come up against a lot of them! For example I am in my second year at sixth form so I have just finished applying to University, this is a big exciting and scary change that I decided I wasn't going to hide from, I want to follow my dream and the only way to do that is to face my biggest fear.

Now, because of the course I want to do, I have to interview at the Universities so that they can get an idea of what I'm like as a person as well as having a look at my portfolio.

The thought of going to a place that I could be studying and they then not like my work or me terrified me, even now it still does....

But the biggest thing I learned throughout all of this is that I can't control what will happen in the future, I just have to think about the here and the now, this for me is getting my Anxiety under control and taking each day as it comes.

I know there aren't many of you that read my small little blog, but for those that do I want to say thank you and if this helps just one of you understand what its like then I'm happy

This is my story

What's Yours?

if you want to talk to me about anything I have mentioned in this post, do not hesitate to get in contact I am happy to help anyone!!

Love,

Becca xxx

P.S. I am going to try and post more, life has been so stressful recently I haven't had chance to just sit down and write